Southern_Bell_08's Xanga

I know that it wasn't even worth the time to write this blog about my ex.

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 13:37:06 GMT

You sit in a daze just starting at people with this sad look. Your heart has been broken for too long now. Whom is it broken over beats me. Is it her or is it me? The question is such a mystery but I really don't care to solve it.

Chance number 1: You where suppose to hang out with me during your time off form work but instead you where in your truck with her. Then lied about the whole situation. When my friends had told me about it i just blew it off as a jealousy issue.

Chance number 2: You where caught talking to her. You said she was going to kill her self and that you where going to talk her out of it. There were plenty of times I told you to never talk to her. You know I didn't care what girl you chatted with as long as it wasn't her. You lied!

Final blow: When you bow up to me to feel like a better man. The words you spoke to me anger me so much. When I stood my ground you stuck your tail between your legs.

We had been threw so much together all these years. We were suppose to live happily ever after. You were lying form the start. I told you I didn't care how much money you made. I told you I didn't care what you look like. You just wanted some one to produce your off spring. You didn't love me because if you did you would of fought like mad to make things work. I don't need another boy in my life. I needed a man.

Now your sad because you have every thing you could ever want but no one to love. You guilt me in the longest time not to leave you because you were going to hurt your self. What for because no else could put up with your crap.

My friends keep telling me that there was some thing not right about you. That where was some thing really wrong. I ignore them because i really cared about you. You just don't get it.

A man can have all the money in the world. All the riches that life could ever offer. You can't buy a women's love and you can't keep her if that is intent of your heart. In the end what is your heart will reflect up on you. -Southern_Bell_08

There is some one new in my life to whom I really care about a lot. He is a man by all means. The intent of his heart reflects his words and his actions. It is the most beautiful thing that there is in life. I am very realistic about things though.

Hopefully though you will be able to find some one that loves your money as much as you do. Hopefully she won't love it so much to steal that away form you. Maybe together the intentions of both you heart will find a peaceful medium.

I don't realte to other females reall well.

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 12:03:19 GMT

Some times girls get mad at me some times. It is not that I don't want to hang out with other females, it just I really don't have a lot in common with them. I am form the south and grew up in the woods. I was raised by a world war two generation. It is so hard for me to relate to some females.

For instance some girls like to hold up a lot drama. I guess in there minds if they hold up a lot of drama it draws all kinds of attention to themselves. I don't want any attention to my self. Then there are other girls who think that shopping and being in fashion is the right way to draw attention to them selves. Indeed they look good but the fashion fades with in less than a week. I for one like to get simple pieces of clothes then dazzle them bright colors pieces of jewelery . Maybe I just don't see the point of being materialistic.

Some girls like to be sneaky about stuff. They play childish games with there men some times. They think that if they play these mind games with there men it will keep them around longer. When they leave them they ask "Why did they leave". Some other girls try to there claws into men that hold a potential big pay out if they get married. For instance they will convinced the guy that they can trust them with there money when they go over seas only to take it all when they leave. Just think that is stupid to.

I just really don't see why some girls get upset with me some times. It is not like I draw in guys form left to right. It is just for me easier to hang out with then girls. It is some thing though I must go in debt for my self. To figure out this mystery. But still...

Words to Ponder

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 14:50:17 GMT

Have you ever just sat down to think about your life? I mean just not as you think that your life is but how it really is. Do you ever think to your self that you have done your part in this world so that you could ease some one's human suffering? It is some thing that God keeps laying upon my heart.

We are just wondering souls in this universe looking for some thing to cling to. Some of us ease our human suffering by clinging to that acholic beverage as though it was an idol. Some us try to justify what we do as a self defense. The term "Fight or filet" is brought to a new extreme in our minds. For some of us though we are crying out for help. We are screaming out threw violence and self hate (Ex:drugs) toward our body. What if it doesn't have to be like that?

I was working on strong plan on what was wrong with our generation. A detail plan on how to bring back the family morals into tomorrow's future. What if in all this craziness in this world it is not my generation that needs to be saved? What if it is the rest of the world?

Re: You would not believe the physco's out there

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 12:28:08 GMT

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:41:15 AM): hi where from?

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:41:26 AM): I am form ms

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:41:27 AM): you

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:41:28 AM): usa

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:41:30 AM): fla

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:41:32 AM): how old?

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:41:34 AM): 25 here u?

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:41:45 AM): 23

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:41:58 AM): amd you a m or f

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:42:01 AM): married?

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:42:20 AM): m

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:42:33 AM): heck no. If i had husbad he would kill me for being in a chat room like this. Are you marred

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:42:50 AM): nope

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:42:52 AM): what do u do?

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:42:59 AM): nothing

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:43:02 AM): what do yuo do

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:43:06 AM): what do you do

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:43:27 AM): army

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:43:32 AM): are u single?

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:43:45 AM): no

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:43:48 AM): are you

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:43:50 AM): tyup

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:43:51 AM): bye

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:44:08 AM): what the heck

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:16 AM): I only talk to single women sorry bye bye

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:44:23 AM): lol

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:30 AM): what?

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:37 AM): fuck you'

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:39 AM): bye

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:44:45 AM): That is childish

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:49 AM): nope

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:53 AM): you got no pic

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:55 AM): you must be fat and ugly

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:57 AM): bye bye

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:00 AM): its childish you laugh

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:45:05 AM): you don't start chating with some one then tell them they are fat and ugly

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:16 AM): ill do what I want to

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:19 AM): im at fort rucker alabama

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:25 AM): only 3 hours from mississippi

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:28 AM): now I suggest you go

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:30 AM): before I make you

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:32 AM): thanks

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:33 AM): bye

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:40 AM): stupid cunt

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:46:05 AM): glad u know to go

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:46:09 AM): I own you hAHBYW

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:51:41 AM): No you don't own me I own you. This is my 2nd time over seas and just becasue i ain't if i was .. i wouldn't fuck you screw you or even think of you. I am not fat nor as hell ain't ugly. This chick wears high heels. So i think you to need to rethink the way that you talk to a person. My name is kim I live right down the road from Shelby. You can find me.. I will be the hot one in the center of a bunch of guys and the envy of all the girls. Take that stupid jerk

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:07 AM): haha go find someone else

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:11 AM): to support your inbred black kids

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:17 AM): AND I HOPE YOU KIDS DIE

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:21 AM): u child molestor

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:31 AM): u are ugly

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:32 AM): fat

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:33 AM): and a LIAR

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:46 AM): ONLY UGLY GIRLS HAVE NO PIC

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:49 AM): STUPID NIGGER'

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:55 AM):

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:56:02 AM): FUCK U I HOPE UR KID DIES

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:56:08 AM): MY MARINE FRIEND TOLD YOU OFF

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:56:09 AM): AND SO DIDI I

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:56:14 AM): YOU FUCKING NIGER BITCH

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:57:53 AM): lol thought so

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:57:56 AM): you shut up you stupid bitch

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:57:58 AM): bye

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 6:01:47 AM): your comment is duely well noted

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:01:48 AM): GET LOST U GODDAMN NIGGER

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:01:53 AM): TYOU ARE UGLY

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:01:56 AM): U GOT NO PIC

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:01:58 AM): YOU FAT BITCH

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:04 AM): AND I HOPE YOUR INBRED KIDS AND U DIE

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:05 AM): GOT IT?

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:08 AM): BYE BYE LOSER

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:09 AM): AND FUCK YOU

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:12 AM): IM NOT AT FORT RUCKER :

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:14 AM): I LIED HAHA

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:17 AM): NOT STUPID

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:53 AM): you are one pathetic WEAK bitch

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:59 AM): any girl can kick your ass lol

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:04:15 AM): your bf Is desperate to date your pathetic ass

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:04:16 AM): bye haha

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:04:17 AM): LOSER

marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:54:51 AM): FUCK U NGGER BITCH

marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:54:53 AM): HOPE UR KIDS DIE

marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:54:54 AM): HOPE U DIE

marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:54:58 AM): BYE U FAT UGLY BLACK BITCH

marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:55:04 AM): UR KIDS ARE SHIT AND INBRED HAHAHAHHAHA

marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:55:08 AM): ybye bye you liar

kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:55:51 AM): who are you

marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:56:59 AM): the army guys friend

marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:57:01 AM): u fucking whore

marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:57:05 AM): bye and die you slut

Note: If these are the kind of people that i don't hang around or deal with. In a world where people are all ready hurting and dying it should not make a difference what color you are. I live by martian luther kings words and beleive that there is a future where ever child has equal right to every thing that life has to offer. People like these are sorry creatures, hate is not a learn behavior for it is a taught. I am a white amercian and makeing a stand against hate. Let's all do our part and say enough is enough. Let us take that final stand. Let our generation be the generation to take that final stand aganist HATE.

Waiting for you

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 08:56:13 GMT

Here I sit where you are not. Here i lay where you are not. Still wating for you. Waiting on a man that travels by foot and is going to keep traviling by foot for a long time. There is no pilliow for his head to rest on only a rock. Still I wait on this weary soul. I don't want for him to change his mind about what he does. I wait for him... and that is all that I can do. No cheating soul lies in this body and no weary heart comes out to play. Waiting for him is the best part.

What is your definition of love?

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 09:33:26 GMT

Depends on what type of love...

puppy love- say i love you, when they tick you off say good bye.

marriage love- to give your self 100% to another person, working threw good and bad times

friendship love- to be there for your friend and CARE what happens to them

sisterly love- do what ever it takes to defend them and take care of them

love-give your self to another person, ensuring that there physical and emotional needs are met, never giving up on them when things get bad

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This is what I would say..

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 11:54:25 GMT

I couldn't believe that I would ever just leave you like that. The hurt and pain threw these years should of been enough to drive me away but it didn't. It just keeped me there hoping that you would change. That you would care about our friendship more then you would money. I would hope that you care enough more to do the simple things in life then just what evering with it. Shock waves have ran threw my body when I found out that you where cheating on me with another female. My heart was crumble. It will be ok thought because I a southern bell.

I was looking forward to all the children that we would of have in a few years. I was looking forward to that log cabin that was going to be built. I was looking forward to the sound of MOOOO in the moring. I don't like cows but they taste really good on my plate. I was looking forward to growing old with you. Keep wondering are you the punishment for the torture I bring to males? Are you the grief that is edge for me? I keep thinking I am just a strong person and I am. This is it Ty. This all that is left or what was us.. just words on blog. That final cut of grief that I will ever take.

Some day I am going to find Mr. Right. When I do you are invited to ever social function that we have. I want you there so that you may see how well I am doing. I want you to the expersion on your face when I am content with everything in my life.

My wisdom..

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 22:10:47 GMT

Writing or figuring out what to write in this blog is becoming harder. There is so many things that I want to say but the words are unfounded in my head. There is knowledge that I want to share with you but don't where to start. Here are few things that I do know.

1. If you think he is cheating on you .. he proabley is.

2. People who use there power of influence to bring you down are jealous.

3. Judy is the female version of Jody.

4. You should show love to someone or no one will show love to you.

5. If you hold a grud1ge against some one the only person it is hurting is you. Your anger will die with and the only people that will remember you is the people who knew you when you where alive.

6. Don't listen to people who tell you that your dreams are stupid.

7. You will hit rock bottom on day. It is ok though because you will be tougher and stronger than you were before.

8. If you truly like a guy... don't have sex with him. He will have more respect for you in the long run if you make him wait.

9. Don't complain about how life has dealt you. You make your life what it is.

10. Take your goals in small bites.

11. Help some one besides your self.

12. Every one wants to talk bad about some one when they are alive. If that person dies you will talk about all the good he has done in this world.

13. Laugh

My blog my voice

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 18:37:33 GMT

This is my blog and it is my voice. In a word where people are so self involved with them selves... it is nice to come here. This is my words type all pretty in hopes that some one will endure my new age ideas. This is my one chance to tell you want I wanted to tell you one the street but you ignored me. This is my one chance to tell how to learn form life and not how to live yours. This is my blog... happy that is what it is. This is an excersise of my 5th amendmant. This is my blog like love it hate but in the end it is my opinion. You can respect that or disagree with what I say, that is you choice. This is my blog .. a love that can't be taken a way or torn from the hands of an angrey social group. This my words that you won't hear me say because you would rather read about them then to up hold a converstaion with me. This is my blog.. and I am proud of it.

Re: Aw yes that first kiss

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 19:24:47 GMT

I never thought about dating another guy. Well, ... I was going to date girls. I hate a lot of females. What change my mind about going into a different direction? This guy I met. It was that first kiss.

I mean it kind of like being a teenager all over again but not really. We sat in my car and he asked " Would you mind if I kiss you" I said yes. I don't know what happen. It was like electritey running threw my body. So I did it again. It was just so like a dream.

He was telling me all the things that he had been threw. I know most of them all ready. Bad stuff. He join the army because of his family and he loves it. He also said that he met girls that said I love you to him.They didn't even know him that well. Well I don't either.

I told him that some girls will say that because they here army and money comes to their mind. It is so sad. I told him to be careful ... Just being funny he said that I am into army women.

Yeah I am in the army and we are going to go over seas soon. Both of us. There is nothing to come home to so why do I care what happens. I mean for reall.

A good women is hard to find. I wanted one to take care of because men did me so wrong. I am going to stop looking because right now I want him. I am just all fuck up about stuff. Please forgive christiana (I think that your name). I don't believe in metting some one on line.