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Saturday, 04 July 2009

My wisdom..

Writing or figuring out what to write in this blog is becoming harder. There is so many things that I want to say but the words are unfounded in my head. There is knowledge that I want to share with you but don't where to start. Here are few things that I do know.
1. If you think he is cheating on you .. he proabley is.
2. People who use there power of influence to bring you down are jealous.
3. Judy is the female version of Jody.
4. You should show love to someone or no one will show love to you.
5. If you hold a grud1ge against some one the only person it is hurting is you. Your anger will die with and the only people that will remember you is the people who knew you when you where alive.
6. Don't listen to people who tell you that your dreams are stupid.
7. You will hit rock bottom on day. It is ok though because you will be tougher and stronger than you were before.
8. If you truly like a guy... don't have sex with him. He will have more respect for you in the long run if you make him wait.
9. Don't complain about how life has dealt you. You make your life what it is.
10. Take your goals in small bites.
11. Help some one besides your self.
12. Every one wants to talk bad about some one when they are alive. If that person dies you will talk about all the good he has done in this world.
13. Laugh

Saturday, 27 June 2009

My blog my voice

This is my blog and it is my voice. In a word where people are so self involved with them selves... it is nice to come here. This is my words type all pretty in hopes that some one will endure my new age ideas. This is my one chance to tell you want I wanted to tell you one the street but you ignored me. This is my one chance to tell how to learn form life and not how to live yours. This is my blog... happy that is what it is. This is an excersise of my 5th amendmant. This is my blog like love it hate but in the end it is my opinion. You can respect that or disagree with what I say, that is you choice. This is my blog .. a love that can't be taken a way or torn from the hands of an angrey social group. This my words that you won't hear me say because you would rather read about them then to up hold a converstaion with me. This is my blog.. and I am proud of it.

Wednesday, 22 October 2008

Re: Aw yes that first kiss

I never thought about dating another guy. Well, ... I was going to date girls. I hate a lot of females. What change my mind about going into a different direction? This guy I met. It was that first kiss.
I mean it kind of like being a teenager all over again but not really. We sat in my car and he asked " Would you mind if I kiss you" I said yes. I don't know what happen. It was like electritey running threw my body. So I did it again. It was just so like a dream.
He was telling me all the things that he had been threw. I know most of them all ready. Bad stuff. He join the army because of his family and he loves it. He also said that he met girls that said I love you to him.They didn't even know him that well. Well I don't either.
I told him that some girls will say that because they here army and money comes to their mind. It is so sad. I told him to be careful ... Just being funny he said that I am into army women.
Yeah I am in the army and we are going to go over seas soon. Both of us. There is nothing to come home to so why do I care what happens. I mean for reall.
A good women is hard to find. I wanted one to take care of because men did me so wrong. I am going to stop looking because right now I want him. I am just all fuck up about stuff. Please forgive christiana (I think that your name). I don't believe in metting some one on line.

Friday, 22 August 2008

Ghostly experience=it is demonic

Brief History lesson about my house and the land around it.
Back in the 1900's the house was own by a lady and man (ha duh but I can't mention there names becuse they are my in laws now). Well, this house was built with the hopes and dreams of them. The land around it was farm land. If you look all way down it slopes to an almost 80 degree angle. The bottom of this angle is what we call kut-zoo or the country term weeds. This is a vine that is more of a parisite the anything else. It destroys any other vegiations that is around it. Welll, back in the day the farms use this vine to stop erosion on the farm land. Well they had no clue that it would just grow everywhere and destory the crops that where in it path. The vine was import form China ... I want to say but it might be Japennese.
To the 80's......
So there was this family living here with there kids. There was 3 young boys that lived in house at the time. In one of the rooms they where cleaning their guns. The first story that I heard was that they thought they had them all clean. After cleaning the gun they put them on the bed. One of the boys jump on the bed, the gun went off and then it blew off his head. The other story that I heard was that one of the boys was playing around with the other one and acciently the gun went off.
Today.....
So our family moved into this house. The first thing that we notice was the house had really weird activey going on. The very first was that you felt as some one was watching you when you took a bath. Not feel but that sense it was going on. Then you see faces in the window. At night you see thing the shadows moving. Then it get really cold some times.
What have I done all these years...
Try to ignore it. See this haunting is more demonice then any thing else. If you play into this demonic being then you give it power. See demons play on fears. That is where they get their power form. It goes back to ying and yang. There is good energy then there is bad energy of this world. It plays off bad. I ignore it to not give this thing any power over me. If that means just ignoring it then that is what I got to do.
Then yesterday happen...
I was laying down after spending most the day at the salon. I just got my nails done and my hair cut. Then the night before I spent the night at my ex-boyfriend house. It wasn't any thing sexual just two friends chilling out. I am keeping to my vow. So coming home I was tired and decided to rest. I was woken up 30 minutes lather to the phone rininging. Then I layed back down on the sofa in my living room. I saw some thing in the corner of my eye. It was shadow of a arm that look like it was in another room. "Whatever" I told my self "I really need to rest." Then I saw a figure that moved into the kitchen. "Just shut your eyes and relax it was proably the shadow of a tree." I look outside and my blinds where closed but I saw a really tall white figure walking outside threw the hole in the blinds. I look agian and it wasn't moving acrose out side but right on my window seal and it was less that 2 inches tall. The dogs where barking outside too. Freak out? Yeah! So I went to start to right this blog. I saw a face near the table. I rushed outside. There was no blood in my face. I was really just shocked. Tell my self that was all in my head didn't really help. It wasn't because it was really. I got my purse, got in my car, and started to leave. As I did I notice a really sad face in the window. I rushed out of there.
(please forgive me if this blog isn't proof read yet I will do it later. I got to do something.)