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Friday, 09 October 2009

I know that it wasn't even worth the time to write this blog about my ex.

You sit in a daze just starting at people with this sad look. Your heart has been broken for too long now. Whom is it broken over beats me. Is it her or is it me? The question is such a mystery but I really don't care to solve it.
Chance number 1: You where suppose to hang out with me during your time off form work but instead you where in your truck with her. Then lied about the whole situation. When my friends had told me about it i just blew it off as a jealousy issue.
Chance number 2: You where caught talking to her. You said she was going to kill her self and that you where going to talk her out of it. There were plenty of times I told you to never talk to her. You know I didn't care what girl you chatted with as long as it wasn't her. You lied!
Final blow: When you bow up to me to feel like a better man. The words you spoke to me anger me so much. When I stood my ground you stuck your tail between your legs.
We had been threw so much together all these years. We were suppose to live happily ever after. You were lying form the start. I told you I didn't care how much money you made. I told you I didn't care what you look like. You just wanted some one to produce your off spring. You didn't love me because if you did you would of fought like mad to make things work. I don't need another boy in my life. I needed a man.
Now your sad because you have every thing you could ever want but no one to love. You guilt me in the longest time not to leave you because you were going to hurt your self. What for because no else could put up with your crap.
My friends keep telling me that there was some thing not right about you. That where was some thing really wrong. I ignore them because i really cared about you. You just don't get it.
A man can have all the money in the world. All the riches that life could ever offer. You can't buy a women's love and you can't keep her if that is intent of your heart. In the end what is your heart will reflect up on you. -Southern_Bell_08
There is some one new in my life to whom I really care about a lot. He is a man by all means. The intent of his heart reflects his words and his actions. It is the most beautiful thing that there is in life. I am very realistic about things though.
Hopefully though you will be able to find some one that loves your money as much as you do. Hopefully she won't love it so much to steal that away form you. Maybe together the intentions of both you heart will find a peaceful medium.

Monday, 05 October 2009

I don't realte to other females reall well.

Some times girls get mad at me some times. It is not that I don't want to hang out with other females, it just I really don't have a lot in common with them. I am form the south and grew up in the woods. I was raised by a world war two generation. It is so hard for me to relate to some females.
For instance some girls like to hold up a lot drama. I guess in there minds if they hold up a lot of drama it draws all kinds of attention to themselves. I don't want any attention to my self. Then there are other girls who think that shopping and being in fashion is the right way to draw attention to them selves. Indeed they look good but the fashion fades with in less than a week. I for one like to get simple pieces of clothes then dazzle them bright colors pieces of jewelery . Maybe I just don't see the point of being materialistic.
Some girls like to be sneaky about stuff. They play childish games with there men some times. They think that if they play these mind games with there men it will keep them around longer. When they leave them they ask "Why did they leave". Some other girls try to there claws into men that hold a potential big pay out if they get married. For instance they will convinced the guy that they can trust them with there money when they go over seas only to take it all when they leave. Just think that is stupid to.
I just really don't see why some girls get upset with me some times. It is not like I draw in guys form left to right. It is just for me easier to hang out with then girls. It is some thing though I must go in debt for my self. To figure out this mystery. But still...

Saturday, 03 October 2009

Words to Ponder

Have you ever just sat down to think about your life? I mean just not as you think that your life is but how it really is. Do you ever think to your self that you have done your part in this world so that you could ease some one's human suffering? It is some thing that God keeps laying upon my heart.
We are just wondering souls in this universe looking for some thing to cling to. Some of us ease our human suffering by clinging to that acholic beverage as though it was an idol. Some us try to justify what we do as a self defense. The term "Fight or filet" is brought to a new extreme in our minds. For some of us though we are crying out for help. We are screaming out threw violence and self hate (Ex:drugs) toward our body. What if it doesn't have to be like that?
I was working on strong plan on what was wrong with our generation. A detail plan on how to bring back the family morals into tomorrow's future. What if in all this craziness in this world it is not my generation that needs to be saved? What if it is the rest of the world?

Wednesday, 30 September 2009

Re: You would not believe the physco's out there

armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:41:15 AM): hi where from?
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:41:26 AM): I am form ms
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:41:27 AM): you
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:41:28 AM): usa
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:41:30 AM): fla
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:41:32 AM): how old?
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:41:34 AM): 25 here u?
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:41:45 AM): 23
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:41:58 AM): amd you a m or f
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:42:01 AM): married?
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:42:20 AM): m
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:42:33 AM): heck no. If i had husbad he would kill me for being in a chat room like this. Are you marred
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:42:50 AM): nope
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:42:52 AM): what do u do?
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:42:59 AM): nothing
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:43:02 AM): what do yuo do
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:43:06 AM): what do you do
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:43:27 AM): army
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:43:32 AM): are u single?
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:43:45 AM): no
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:43:48 AM): are you
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:43:50 AM): tyup
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:43:51 AM): bye
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:44:08 AM): what the heck
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:16 AM): I only talk to single women sorry bye bye
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:44:23 AM): lol
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:30 AM): what?
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:37 AM): fuck you'
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:39 AM): bye
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:44:45 AM): That is childish
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:49 AM): nope
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:53 AM): you got no pic
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:55 AM): you must be fat and ugly
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:44:57 AM): bye bye
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:00 AM): its childish you laugh
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:45:05 AM): you don't start chating with some one then tell them they are fat and ugly
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:16 AM): ill do what I want to
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:19 AM): im at fort rucker alabama
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:25 AM): only 3 hours from mississippi
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:28 AM): now I suggest you go
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:30 AM): before I make you
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:32 AM): thanks
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:33 AM): bye
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:45:40 AM): stupid cunt
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:46:05 AM): glad u know to go
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:46:09 AM): I own you hAHBYW
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:51:41 AM): No you don't own me I own you. This is my 2nd time over seas and just becasue i ain't if i was .. i wouldn't fuck you screw you or even think of you. I am not fat nor as hell ain't ugly. This chick wears high heels. So i think you to need to rethink the way that you talk to a person. My name is kim I live right down the road from Shelby. You can find me.. I will be the hot one in the center of a bunch of guys and the envy of all the girls. Take that stupid jerk
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:07 AM): haha go find someone else
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:11 AM): to support your inbred black kids
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:17 AM): AND I HOPE YOU KIDS DIE
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:21 AM): u child molestor
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:31 AM): u are ugly
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:32 AM): fat
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:33 AM): and a LIAR
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:46 AM): ONLY UGLY GIRLS HAVE NO PIC
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:49 AM): STUPID NIGGER'
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:53:55 AM):
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:56:02 AM): FUCK U I HOPE UR KID DIES
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:56:08 AM): MY MARINE FRIEND TOLD YOU OFF
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:56:09 AM): AND SO DIDI I
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:56:14 AM): YOU FUCKING NIGER BITCH
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:57:53 AM): lol thought so
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:57:56 AM): you shut up you stupid bitch
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 5:57:58 AM): bye
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 6:01:47 AM): your comment is duely well noted
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:01:48 AM): GET LOST U GODDAMN NIGGER
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:01:53 AM): TYOU ARE UGLY
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:01:56 AM): U GOT NO PIC
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:01:58 AM): YOU FAT BITCH
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:04 AM): AND I HOPE YOUR INBRED KIDS AND U DIE
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:05 AM): GOT IT?
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:08 AM): BYE BYE LOSER
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:09 AM): AND FUCK YOU
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:12 AM): IM NOT AT FORT RUCKER :
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:14 AM): I LIED HAHA
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:17 AM): NOT STUPID
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:53 AM): you are one pathetic WEAK bitch
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:02:59 AM): any girl can kick your ass lol
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:04:15 AM): your bf Is desperate to date your pathetic ass
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:04:16 AM): bye haha
armyflier002 (9/30/2009 6:04:17 AM): LOSER
marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:54:51 AM): FUCK U NGGER BITCH
marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:54:53 AM): HOPE UR KIDS DIE
marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:54:54 AM): HOPE U DIE
marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:54:58 AM): BYE U FAT UGLY BLACK BITCH
marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:55:04 AM): UR KIDS ARE SHIT AND INBRED HAHAHAHHAHA
marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:55:08 AM): ybye bye you liar
kim200439428 (9/30/2009 5:55:51 AM): who are you
marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:56:59 AM): the army guys friend
marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:57:01 AM): u fucking whore
marine_guy_1980 (9/30/2009 5:57:05 AM): bye and die you slut
Note: If these are the kind of people that i don't hang around or deal with. In a world where people are all ready hurting and dying it should not make a difference what color you are. I live by martian luther kings words and beleive that there is a future where ever child has equal right to every thing that life has to offer. People like these are sorry creatures, hate is not a learn behavior for it is a taught. I am a white amercian and makeing a stand against hate. Let's all do our part and say enough is enough. Let us take that final stand. Let our generation be the generation to take that final stand aganist HATE.

Wednesday, 16 September 2009

Waiting for you

Here I sit where you are not. Here i lay where you are not. Still wating for you. Waiting on a man that travels by foot and is going to keep traviling by foot for a long time. There is no pilliow for his head to rest on only a rock. Still I wait on this weary soul. I don't want for him to change his mind about what he does. I wait for him... and that is all that I can do. No cheating soul lies in this body and no weary heart comes out to play. Waiting for him is the best part.